Hope!

Again I have received a book that has touched my heart and spoken directly to me. My Nana and Papa gave me the book "Jesus Today" by Sarah Young which is the sequel to "Jesus Calling" that the Halliens gave me. This was the first page and it is perfect in every way.

"PUT YOUR HOPE IN ME, AND MY UNFAILING LOVE WILL REST UPON YOU. Some of my children have forgotten how to hope. They have been disappointed so many time they don't want to risk being let down again. So the forge ahead stoically-living mechanically. Other people put their hope in problem solving, medical treatments, the stock market, the lottery, and so on. But i challenge you to place your hope in Me.
No matter what is happening in your life now, your story has an amazingly happy ending. though the way ahead may look dark to you, there is brilliant, everlasting Light at the end of your earth-journey. My finished work on the cross secured this heavenly hope for you, and it is absolutely assured. Moreover, knowing that your story finishes well can fill your present journey with Joy. The more you put your hope in Me, the more My Love-Light shines upon you-brightening your day. Remember that I am with you continually, and I Myself am your Hope!"

This describes me perfectly. I feel like I have had my hopes up so many times only to be shut down. I was so hopeful my surgery would be the answer to my pain but here I am, still in so much pain. As we continue to search I hope doctors will give me answers on why am still in pain, only for them to tell me "You will have chronic pain the rest of your life so learn how to manage it because there is nothing wrong". I wanted to shout at the doctor and say "REALLY? You try living in my body for a day and then tell me there is nothing wrong." I was so angry and disappointed...I lost my hope. I need to put my hope in God and trust HIM. If I am supposed to have pain the rest of my life then fine I will deal with it, or maybe He will give me the answer tomorrow. Either way I need to place my hope in Him and only Him.

Josh Wilson Concert on Valentines Day = Perfect!

My family, except Jessica because she is in college, and Grant went to the JoyFm sofa concert of Josh Wilson and it was awesome. He is an amazing singer and I love his songs. He has many songs that I can relate to every word. On of my favorites is his new song Carry Me. He wrote the song about himself and his struggles with panic attacks. The song is saying that we can't make it on our own and even though sometimes we think we have things under control when things are okay, we don't. And it is when we hit rock bottom that we realize we need him to carry us because we are helpless on our own. Through my struggles, I know that I am not strong enough to do this by myself and that God is carrying me and the footprints of my journey are not my own but his.

 Carry Me

I try to catch my breath
It hasn't happened yet
I'm wide awake in the middle of the night scared to death
So I prayed God, would You make this stop
Father please hold on to me, You're all I've got
Carry me, carry me, carry me now
From my sinking sand to Your solid ground
The only way I'm ever gonna make it out
Is if You carry me, carry me, carry me now
God carry me, carry me, carry me now
Jesus calm my heart
Come near me please
Lord don't let these worries get the best of me
Oh I believe, that You're still here with me
Cause You meant what You said when You said You'd never leave
Carry me, carry me, carry me now
From my sinking sand to Your solid ground
The only way I'm ever gonna make it out
Is if You carry me, carry me, carry me now
God carry me, carry me, carry me now
Carry me
God carry me
Carry me
God carry me
I'm at the end of myself
I know I've got nothing left
Feels like I'm stuck in the valley of the shadow of death
And I've been down here so long
I just can't find my way out
Oh God I don't stand a chance
Unless You carry me now
God carry me now
Carry me, carry me, carry me now
From my sinking sand to Your solid ground
The only way I'm ever gonna make it out
Is if You carry me, carry me, carry me now
God carry me, carry me, carry me now
Carry me now
Carry me now
Carry me now
Carry me now

Disney World here we come!!!!

My high school dance team(the jaywalkers) had the privilege to compete in Disney world at the national dance team competition.

 We competed with our kick routine to "All That Jazz" in the semi-finals. We didn't make it into the finals and were disappointed but we had a blast anyway.

This is all of our seniors on the team and our coach Ashley on the floor we danced on.

After we competed we got to spend the next 2 days in Disney World. We rode rides and took pictures with the princesses, I swear we were just as excited as the little girls to see them. On Sunday night we went to downtown Disney and ate and shopped, then we went to Hollywood Studios. They shut down the park for the dance teams and open 4 rides for us. We rode Tower of Terror over and over and had so much fun. 

It was difficult at times to take my breaks in the middle of the park but I made it work because I didn't want to miss a minute of our trip. When the team flew back Monday morning, my mom and I rented a car and drove down to St. Petersburg. I had an my 3 month appointment with Dr. Piper at 8 a.m. on Tuesday.